Tears

To sing mutely
And dance without music
Is like falling in love

In the empty abyss
Of substance abuse
Where everything but nothing
Is a haze full of pain

And where shall we wait?
Until when should we wait?

When we're dying cold and shameless,
Brooding and sad.

Intellects suffer because they think
Of others not thinking,
Of others not feeling

Where do we feel filled hollows
With boiling madness?

Will you hold on
When alarm bells ring,
Sounding through an
Empty dark room.

There, we end.

Response

When I first saw your smile,
I know there was nothing to hide,
When I saw the gleam in your eye,
I knew you needed me,
Because I saw through you,
And I saw hunger

I offer companionship,
You received it lovingly
I offer hope
You received it humbly

Now I offer love,
You kept it,

But you forgot that there was such a thing you hold,
You seek, you take in a deep breath, and look
Your eyes searching far,
I wanted to hold your hand
To say you'll eventually find it,
Even though I wanted you
To read my mind and see there
That what you're looking for is at the palm of your hand

When I see you there,
In a little corner by the drift of tear,
I want to hold you,
Get you out of there,
Say it's alright and safe

I think of you,
I hope I cross your mind
Even though I know
That you never saw me,
Even in your dreams

I want to hold you,
But I want you to hold my head too,
When I cry,
When I feel helpless,
When I feel lost,
When I am feeling nothing.

I want you to be there,
To hold me,
To care for me,
To love me,

Because I feel so lonely,
I feel so weak.
What I had to give,
You took them all.

The Prince and the Waiting

Once upon a time
In a land far away,
Or at least, that's what they say,
There was a boy,
Who never wanted to be a prince

And in a land much farther away,
There was a girl,
Pretending to be a princess

She waits for her prince,
Dreams of her happy ever after
And traps herself in her own illusions,
Wishing, waiting, hoping.

And she got tired,
And lonely,
And reverted back to nothing,
While the boy was at his castle,
Too scared to go out,
Too afraid to know,
To live, to love.

There was never a happy ever after,
There is no forever,
And there will never be any beginning.

Lost

It's because
We are both hurting
And crying,
Now we are lost, done trying

And I see you with someone else
And cannot forget
The blankness in your eyes
The empty hollowness,
Eating you from the inside

We touch,
Long lost lovers,
Who cannot be together again
And we were both confused
And lost track of the road again

We journey back
But we cannot hold on to each other
Letting go will be best
But it hurts too much
And we get scared

We had no choice
We have to cling to others
To live, to survive
Then they are temporary and blissful

We seek each other again
Hoping, wishing,
The other is there.

Because we know.

We know.

We have always been together.

Illusions

Blistering pain has been trying
To conquer me, one who's dying,
A hollow shell inside the darkness
Living inside an obvious mess

The writhing pain, the soaring
Lightheadedness
And the needles
Pricking the tip of my fingers

The bloodshot eyes,
The fallen ones,
Where do you run to?
To the light or to the
Burning madness of veiled pleasure?

Gone

Is that all we are worth?
Without a glimpse
Nor even a goodbye
You're gone

What do I do now?
I'm lost without you
I keep holding on to memories
But I'm out of your life

How will I find another?
I can only think of you,
Your sweet kisses and loving arms,
All my imagination

Am I delusional?
Where are you now?

Should I mourn my loss?
Or should you mourn yours?

Random

I still wonder if you really love me
Thoughts keep running through my head,
wondering if I really make you happy
Or you just pretend that I do.

It hurts knowing you are willing to do
Everything from your previous loves,
but what are you willing to do for me,
Really?

I could dedicate thousands,
Millions of songs, to
Tell you how much
I
Love
You

But how many hymns are you willing
To sing, to play,
For me?

Don't let me wait
l
o
n
g
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