Walls

The walls around me
Won’t crumble,
Or decay

The walls around me
Are indestructible and
Ruthless

The walls around me
Won’t go down to ruins

The walls around me
Live like iron-fisted seeds
Along the crash of waves
Against the coast

The walls around me
Grips my heart,
Sears my soul,
Strips me of life

The whispers from the inside
Capturing my sins,
my pride, my love,
my sense of feeling
and being

I walk down on a path
that presented “life”
And I see that

The walls around me
Won’t be left behind.

Homeless

In this old place,
Where flowers bloom and wither,
And where seas keep crashing
Against the sun-burnt sand,
I find no shelter
To keep me from
The defying odds of nature

On this land,
I found hope and terror,
I smelled fear and anger,
And I felt joy

From this dire environment
I run away

I keep going places -
Everywhere it's the same
My belongings are packed -
Always ready to be grabbed
For my leave

And people think
'Is a fugitive in their midst?'
But a fugitive will,
And always be sought -
He is existing and chased
As to I
Have no person to keep me down

because I have no home to keep.

Music Box

I've turned the key
Let it played, turn
Round and round,
Let it enticed me in its wonder
Wound up its music
Around my head

Created an illusion
That made me happy

As the key staggered
Its way to its last rhythm,
Melody,
It robbed me of my tears

It finally ended
Finally closed.

And took my heart away from me,
Then broke its key.

Tears

To sing mutely
And dance without music
Is like falling in love

In the empty abyss
Of substance abuse
Where everything but nothing
Is a haze full of pain

And where shall we wait?
Until when should we wait?

When we're dying cold and shameless,
Brooding and sad.

Intellects suffer because they think
Of others not thinking,
Of others not feeling

Where do we feel filled hollows
With boiling madness?

Will you hold on
When alarm bells ring,
Sounding through an
Empty dark room.

There, we end.

Response

When I first saw your smile,
I know there was nothing to hide,
When I saw the gleam in your eye,
I knew you needed me,
Because I saw through you,
And I saw hunger

I offer companionship,
You received it lovingly
I offer hope
You received it humbly

Now I offer love,
You kept it,

But you forgot that there was such a thing you hold,
You seek, you take in a deep breath, and look
Your eyes searching far,
I wanted to hold your hand
To say you'll eventually find it,
Even though I wanted you
To read my mind and see there
That what you're looking for is at the palm of your hand

When I see you there,
In a little corner by the drift of tear,
I want to hold you,
Get you out of there,
Say it's alright and safe

I think of you,
I hope I cross your mind
Even though I know
That you never saw me,
Even in your dreams

I want to hold you,
But I want you to hold my head too,
When I cry,
When I feel helpless,
When I feel lost,
When I am feeling nothing.

I want you to be there,
To hold me,
To care for me,
To love me,

Because I feel so lonely,
I feel so weak.
What I had to give,
You took them all.

The Prince and the Waiting

Once upon a time
In a land far away,
Or at least, that's what they say,
There was a boy,
Who never wanted to be a prince

And in a land much farther away,
There was a girl,
Pretending to be a princess

She waits for her prince,
Dreams of her happy ever after
And traps herself in her own illusions,
Wishing, waiting, hoping.

And she got tired,
And lonely,
And reverted back to nothing,
While the boy was at his castle,
Too scared to go out,
Too afraid to know,
To live, to love.

There was never a happy ever after,
There is no forever,
And there will never be any beginning.

Lost

It's because
We are both hurting
And crying,
Now we are lost, done trying

And I see you with someone else
And cannot forget
The blankness in your eyes
The empty hollowness,
Eating you from the inside

We touch,
Long lost lovers,
Who cannot be together again
And we were both confused
And lost track of the road again

We journey back
But we cannot hold on to each other
Letting go will be best
But it hurts too much
And we get scared

We had no choice
We have to cling to others
To live, to survive
Then they are temporary and blissful

We seek each other again
Hoping, wishing,
The other is there.

Because we know.

We know.

We have always been together.